Why do I shake at the sound of your voice?
You give me a feeling of no self worth.
Why do I feel so worthless when you’re near?
Hate is all that I hear…
It silences my mind.
But why do I need to feel that you love me?
When all that I have is scarred memories of a dark childhood looking up to every aspect of you.
Why do you pity me Father?
Or am I the exact same child that your Father destroyed…
I can’t erase all our memories.
They eat away at my emotions,
Every fucking day!
I can't hide anymore Father.
You’ve ruined me…
Our relationship will never be anything more than a sinking ship.
No anchors…
Just a sinking wreckage.
I drown…
You will never see me again.
Don’t dive in after me,
Because I will never be worth the love of being in your arms.
Just let me down Father, it’s what you do best.
I bet your Father was the same.
It’s funny how you follow in your Father’s foot steps.
Well I’m certainly not.
I will leave this world before my children ever experience the worthless Father figure you were to me.
I’m not coming back Father…
I hope you look back on what we could have been.
I certainly do.
Every night as my eyes darken the pain.
Slowly dying as I fall asleep…
